Insight To Chaos

…For President Reagan. The man survived the first eight years of my life in one of the most stressful jobs out there. Oh yeah, and he was pretty good at it too. Here’s to you Gipper…

Okay so for like the two people who read this, i’ll skip on the extensive recap of my life lately, seeing as how you’ve been a large part of the experience. (just in case you’re lost…see my homie chris’ page he’ll hook you up.) I will inject my little spice though. the last week for me has been a pretty good ride. see, a few months back i was feeling pretty shitty about myself. a problem had surfaced with quite a few of my close friends. Not usually a biggy, but this time it was enough for me to walk away. Four months later and i’m really getting to see now who i really cherish having in my life. And who actually like having me around too. That’s nice. Many of these people i had in one way or another lost touch with partly due to the crowd i hung out with. The point is that i’m getting those people back, slowly but surely, and that’s awesome, cause they’re just groovy people. It’s just really good to know who your friends are. Got to see Harry Pooper with some of those people last thursday night…the movie was alright – not really all that i had hoped for – but the company was better. I hadn’t laughed that much in a very long while. The next night was just as awesome cause not only was i in good company, but i got drunk. so drunk in fact that i fell down laughing and fucked up my back. Yes the wound is still there, but it’s all right it reminds me of how good a time i was having. Now when i get a pat on the back, i twitch and reminisce. good times…
Now Saturday…Two of the most wonderful people i’ve ever known finally married each other. Summer and Curtis – there’s not a doubt in my mind that your love for each other and for life will only continue to grow. You deserve all the good stuff and more!
Saturday was beautiful. It was also my 10 year high school reunion…4 years early. I even got to see some people whom not too long ago i cared about very deeply. Unfortunately, the feeling wasn’t returned and our friendship ended. That’s the breaks i guess, but it was still nice to see them and see that they are all doing well. I wiil spare whoever reads this post – all two of you – from going into everything that went through my head that day. I will however say this. People who say they love you and they miss you shouldn’t make promises they’re too drunk to keep. It only makes things worse and continues to make you a liar.
Okay so rest of week is finals and house hunting. Oh yeah, I’m moving out! Finally! This is so awesome but at the same time dangerous. I don’t seem to do very well with major decisions sometimes. At least not when it’s something i’ve wanted for so long. Almost every place i looked at today i wanted. that’s not a good thing. we’ll see what happens. things will work out, i’m sure.

it’s a tough thing discovering the un-truths in your life…I find that delusions help to make it all better. Oh, and masturbation.